My 35m husband has downloaded AI chat apps about fantasies, manga porn, and other suggestive examples. We have marriage counseling on Thursday because of infidelity fantasies he has concocted not long ago. I am so fucking lost in all of this, my self worth is in the septic tank, I’m in individual counseling but I can’t talk to anyone else about this. I brought it up to one friend and things haven’t been the same since, I know they look at me differently.
I have so many scrambled thoughts at this point and I need help on what to say before, during, after. We have a healthy and explorative sex life, but I know he has an addiction and AI is absolutely ruining it with instant gratification and by push back in how far some of these will go. I’ve already discovered grok images and uncensored chat convos and I’m just physically ill from it all. I have a constant knot in my stomach from this.
I guess I also need an insider POV, why indulge if you know your partner will be hurt? What is it that’s missing from a live, consenting, physical partner that the soulless images of AI are “what gets the job done”? I will add, I’m not unattractive. I get approached by men often at gym, stores, etc. even when my husband is 5 ft away. I know I’m attractive, I’m also intelligent, funny af, cook bomb-ass food from scratch, keep the house clean, have a career, and pay bills. But still not good enough.
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