u/LowStandard1818

i’m so scared of existence like suddenly i’m too aware that i’m human and the best way i can describe it is i feel primal and just landed on earth and everything around me like especially technology feels unnatural. i have anxiety but it’s never been like right now my heart is beating so fast and i’m locked into bed it feels like i’m high but i’m not. i deadass convinced myself i have schizophrenia i’m 17 is this normal or should i get checked out

i just realized during my 17 years of living we have never had a guest over, my parents don’t go out except with us and outside of work. we don’t have any extended family in state, i’ve met my grandparents once when we went to korea. i thought this was normal for adults until i saw my friends parents having nights out and family reunions </3