I am 6 weeks 6 days today. Pregnancy was planned, as I was in a good place, but happened much quicker than expected (straight away) so felt very shocking. I have PCOS and was expecting it to take years.
I found out at 4 weeks and felt okay to begin with. I woke up one day in week 5 in total panic, regret and despair. I was immediately sick and had diarrhoea.
I have suffered with anxiety and some depression throughout my life having two major breakdowns (in 2022 and 2018) and this feels like the third.
I am currently under the crisis team as I’m having suicidal thoughts and feeling very mentally unwell. I am considering abortion, which is something I never thought i would say, because my mental health is so poor. I can’t imagine ever feeling better as long as I stay pregnant. I have been referred to perinatal mental health team and am waiting for them to decide if they will accept me into the service.
My husband is really excited and reassures me I will feel better but I don’t believe him. It’s caused us to have lots of arguments.
I’m so desperate to know if other people have felt the same as me? Can hormones really make us feel THIS bad?
Thank you