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They went through my phone and found out that I was sneaking around with him and they didn’t care that much abt his age all they said was “18 is too old but you put yourself in that situation he could’ve got you pregnant or gotten into an STD” and my dad said “I had to read all of that disgusting shit out loud to your mom” and i did lie and say he was 18 not 19 and a senior in high school but they said that they know everything because they went through my phone but they kept asking me follow up questions because I think they wanted confirmation but im sorry the only way to protect myself is to lie around them and now they wont let me stay after school for the rest of the year and said i should've known better. They found out i cut myself but they were more concerned than mad about that.

My brother told me I need to tell my family the full story because they don’t know everything and I told him “they already know they went through my phone“ but my brother wants me to tell them so i can press charges against him. My parents will never trust me and i know they will always blame me. They don’t know what it is like to wake up like this everyday but they had to have a crashout about some texts on my phone saying what happened?? Actually pussies. They wonder why i don’t like them but and if they knew that this was happening before I don’t know why they decided to call it out last minute. I want to tell my therapist about this, but I don’t want him to get reported because I don’t wanna go to court. And nobody is going to take me serious. I wish I could just my house. I never really feel happy every time I’m away from home I don’t miss my parents. They never really did anything abusive to me so I can’t just call CPS or go live with another family member. Fuck this.

my brother made a post on his story, taking a screenshot of my groomer’s account saying “this man is a pos and a groomer if u follow him or are friends with him in anyway do not fucking talk to me” and ik it’s stupid, but there’s not much I can do because I’ve been freaking out about him the past few days and no other way I can report this and I’m tired of seeing my groomer happy my groomer also went back to his ex that he originally left for me and I’m so pissed off about that I don’t really think anything’s gonna happen, but I just hope nothing gets blown out of hand, but I have a feeling something is gonna happen idk I just need to ramble

its been a while since i posted on this sub reddit because I’m just tired of pedophiles trying to come into mine DMs and target me but I have nowhere else to go.

I literally cannot leave him alone for the life of me. I haven’t reached out to him, but I just can’t stop thinking about him and his hands on my body. I hate that i still feel sympathy for him. Today, I was thinking about him and I saw that this one girl that he was talking to before me (he left her for me) that they started following each other again. I just felt numb and I wanted to start screaming. The only way i dont think about him is when i smoke. But I don’t have any anymore weed left. I cant stop blaming myself. Today I was with my friend, we were walking somewhere after school and we saw his car pass by and I jumped out of my skin. It’s hard for me to take a phone break. I REALLY REALLY REALLY want To talk to my therapist about this but I don’t wanna get him reported. Because I’m scared that she’s gonna report me for him abusing me in the past and I just have no idea what to do. I can’t go back to him because im not the first girl he assaulted. I just found out yesterday that he assaulted other people in the past. But I am the first underage girl he did it to. I am just so obsessed with his whereabouts and just obsessed with him in general and I know that he wants that. He is winning. I don’t know what to do. I just really need help. Is there any way I can tell my therapist? I really just don’t want her to report me and I’m pretty sure she will have to report past abuse from everything I’ve looked into.