So when i was 12 around July 2023 i met a guy who was 16. He was so sweet and nice, he made me feel safe and protected. He would often call me cute nicknames and petnames. We were very long distance, hes in America and im in central europe. After a month of being close friends, he asked to be partners. (I was genderfluid back then, still exploring my sexuality and gender as a young teen does.) And i said im not comfortable with the age gap (i mean, i was 12 and he was 16 for fucks sake) and declined politelty, saying id rather stay friends.
Well, he kept pushing. Hed tell me he loves me so deeply every day and call me things like "babe" or "beloved". So i caved in... I said "youre too sweet for me, i cant say no to you. I love you too" one night before going to sleep. And then it started... So, we are both furries (pretty important for the lore) and he would show me r34 frequently. We had a server where he would send his goon material. (I identified with the term asexual back then, now i identify with aegosexual) So i never really looked at it or cared much. He would send me photos of him in stockings and lewd poses without showing his junk. He would tell me to draw nsfw of our fursonas (i was still 12 years old) and i turned 13 on november. He would tell me to go on ai chat apps to get my rp skills up so we can roleplay nsfw topics, and thats how mt addicion to character ai started (im healed now btw). He got nsfw commisions of our fursonas, too.
He broke up with me around six months after we got together, somewhere in late January/early February 2024. He told me hes "uncomfortable with our age gap". Which was a lie, he told me before that he doesnt care about our age gap and even told me to lie about my age to his friends.
I blocked him after that. Im almost 15 now and i started missing him a lot. Hes been my biggest supporter when i came out as trans to him and he was geniuenly so sweet. But i also felt pressured to be in a relationship with him and even after telling him im uncomfortable with sexual topics he would still talk about them and i started thinking thats how a relationship is supposed to look like.
(And im in a very happy, healthy relationship with a very sweet boy now, and i feel guilty thinking about that 16 year old.)
So, i dont know if i was groomed or if i was just a stupid young teen. After leaving the relationship i thought that i was t groomed because grooming is between a minor and an adult only, but lately ive researched and found out its not only between those ages.