u/Low-Seaworthiness472

So this is a very difficult question to ask as it’s a pretty personal topic but here I go.

I question a lot about my gender identity and I’m still working to figure that out, I’m AMAB and grew up feeling off but not quite sure, I grew up liking women and still do but I’m at a point now where the attraction/jealousy is pretty blurred and I have a hard time. I still get, urges, and I still pleasure those urges. But a lot of the time I feel gross, I feel like I’m just some sexual freak and this is all because I’m horny and gross, I know in my heart that’s not true but when I dress up nice I find myself more attractive and feel really good (minus some things I’m self conscious about) but sometimes when I’m in a situation where I can’t necessarily dress up and feel pretty but I can go pleasure myself and after I feel gross. I’m just having a hard time feeling ok about both, I don’t know how often is too often I don’t know if what I’m doing is bad.

I’m just wondering if anyone has had similar concerns.