u/LostandParanoid

I am in my 30s and I have been working full time since I graduated highschool, with only 1 week without a job while moving in 2014. I grew up in a very very poor abusive home and have had 0 support system. I built up a successful career from nothing, got my bachelor's in a diff field at the same time and bought a house all by myself. Moved across the country twice, all alone.

My work doesnt fulfill me and it never has. In the past year or so a new boss at work has made it even harder to soldier through. I am too tired to do the things that fulfill me during the work week, and the weekend is just never enough to fill my cup truly. I sit at the computer working and I feel empty to the point of exhaustion. I am not taking care of myself as best I could because of the cycle of stress and depression the work week causes me.

My fiance is so supportive and wants me to quit so I can have a break and find myself again and be happy. He is the most wonderful man and human being I have ever met. He can support us both, even through our big milestone events coming up.

Easy right? But im afraid that if I quit......I will be judged poorly, I will have less value, and ill strain him (even though i know all of this isnt true logically).....

I need advice. Im afraid im wasting away, but im also afraid of taking the leap and losing everything ive worked for.