Struggling mentally after break up
Girlfriend and I broke up about 3 & half months ago. I love her so fkn much. I’m not making any progress in moving on. It’s starting to really affect me mentally and causing me to feel really depressed.
She can go do whatever she wants, I miss her insanely every single day. I think about her 24/7. but don’t want her back. Ever since breaking up I’ve been robbed of everything.
I barely eat, low drive, no motivation. The things that used to bring me peace and joy I just constantly cry while doing them.
I’ve been so isolated and alone, not having much friends either.
I just miss her and loved her so much. I wanted to marry her and live a life with her.
I have been messy myself after the break up, losing character and saying nasty things to her as a reaction to hearing things she is doing.
I don’t know why I’m like this or acting like this, but this one definitely has hit the hardest. I find it very difficult to live a normal life. And this pain has been the exact same for the whole 3 & half months.
It’s actually getting harder cuz it feels like it’s never going away.
I want to truly heal. I’ve been trying and doing everything we see and read about post break ups.
Just curious if anybody knows or has some ways to help heal more effectively.
I don’t want to feel like my life is pointless just because I don’t have the love/validation from the one person I loved the most.
And for context… me and this girl developed a very deep- soul tie kind of bond. Dated for a year but knew eachother for much longer. Some people may just say this for the sakes of saying it but I genuinely scarified my whole world for her.