u/Loch_Ness331

Ok so let me be honest, I don’t know how this shit works. I don’t Reddit, I just watch KMK to get my info. Idk if I’m even in the right subreddit thingy.

So basically, I’m 17 and I was raised in a very Christian/conservative family. All my life has been “men are not supposed to be with men” and “women are not supposed to be with women”. But last year, I discovered that I had a minor crush on one of my classmates. I tried to ignore it but it wouldn’t go away. So I decided to maybe just try to embrace it. I came out to my friends and they were all super supportive and all that shit. Did I ever ask the girl out? Ofc not. Did I ever come out to my parents? Ofc not.

Then, this year, I dated this one girl, Eva. It was very short, and I had to end it because she was being way too toxic. After that I tried to convince myself that I was straight again and telling my friends that she made me realize that I wasn’t able to date girls. After that I basically deep dived in my faith and tried to be the best version of myself. But ever since a few weeks ago, my feelings for my old crush came back. I honestly don’t know what to do.

On one hand, I feel like I’m really into her, but one the other hand, I feel like I’m betraying my faith and family. I really don’t know what to do and I feel like there’s this pit in my stomach and it won’t leave.

Help.

I’m looking for a bf/gf.

I think I’m into women but I don’t know what to do