How to go on a break
Me F19 and my boyfriend M20 are going on a break he needed to, I mean this guy has a horrible work to home life ratio like really bad and he is very very depressed so it makes sense that he wants to get out and love himself and learn to find who he is before continuing our relationship I mean we are a FRESH relationship like 2 months right now so it’s not like serious but idk I miss him so much we are only on day 2, we keep each others snaps and instagrams and we still have the pictures of us together on our instagrams so it doesn’t feel like a big distance for him I think idk how he feels but for me it does feel big because we don’t text at al. However I realize that I need this too I have anxious attachment I love hard and fast and loose myself in the relationship but it’s driving me insane I look at pictures of us and my heart flutters I want to talk to him again but I know HE needs time and I need time but what do I do to fill up MY time? I already exercise, I love school and do very well in school (nursing school to add on to that note) I draw, I play video games and I cook but I still feel this hole in my heart that wants to be filled. Now I will ALSO say I suffer from mommy and daddy issues so I know a lot of this yearning for affection comes from that but literally I’ve been watching a lot of YouTube and unfortunately stooping to a new low… ChatGPT because this is all so new and anxiety inducing for me I’m scared he will not ever contact me again I’m scared that he will find a better women etc. and I notice I’m getting so overly emotional when he just sends me one snap per day then leaves me on open (a streak snap) it’s SO obsessive I’m aware of that I just really want this affection what do I do? How do I find that love for myself and get rid of this overly anxious attachment feeling. I also just don’t know how long this is going to last and I’m scared for sure I don’t know how long this is going to be and that feeling sucks soooooo hard