Confused about my gender
Hi. I am 18/19 years old. I was born a girl and ever since my freshman year I have wanted to be more of a boy. I would always watch LGBTQ shows mainly with 2 boys together. This would be in my mind 24/7 and I was always wishing that I was a boy. Eventually this thought went away and I haven’t thought about it since.
Now that I am 18 I have met the LOML and we live together and do everything together. He is transgender FTM. Ever since a couple of months ago my thoughts came back about wanting to be a boy. I admire my bf a lot and I think a lot about wanting to be more like him. Ex. Wanting to look more like him, wanting to see if I could become like him, wanting to see how I would look and feel. When we are in bed I love to be called “good boy” and handsome, and etc. but I still want to be his girl but want to be more of a boy? Is it too late to transition? Is it all just in my head?