u/Lillianne_Hall

This is just a bunch of lore text and some unfinished ideas for my sk8 the infinity oc; I'll probably organize it more later when I actually start writing the story - If anyone has questions or ideas feel free to comment :3

(the link is my original post with a basic design of Chioni)

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Chioni Nifada
13
Aroace
ASD - Special Interest with space
Blue DISC profile (analytical, detail-oriented - focus on accuracy, precision and adherence to rules)
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She is Langa's cousin on his father's side (her mother is Langa's aunt)

Chioni's father left when she was young because he didn't want to or know how to deal with her neurodivergence; her mother also doesn't have any experience and doesn't know how to help her daughter, this has caused their relationship to become strained

She was born and raised in a remote Canadian village but her mother is worried about her lack of socialisation, so after talking with Langa's mother she sends Chioni to live in Okinawa with her cousin Langa

Chioni doesn't want to go because she won't be able to go ice skating with her best friends Illios anymore, and she hates being in new places, but she ends up going anyway
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In Japan Chioni feels restless and overwhelmed, both due to the change in environment, going to a new school, having to socialise more, as well as being unable to ice skate anymore, which was her main source of comfort and self regulation when she lived in Canada

Chioni goes to the same school as Miya, and is in the same classroom, but they don't talk much. They get placed together for a project forcing them to interact more and Miya finds that Chioni is actually pretty interesting

Eventually Chioni can't take it anymore and stops going to school, she just wants to go back to Canada, she starts to lock herself in her room and stops doing basic self care like eating, exercise, brushing her hair. etc. Which is highly concerning because she follows a strict, structured routine everyday.

Langa's mother is concerned so she talks to Chioni's mother, who is considering just bringing Chioni back to Canada, but then Illios talks to Miya and Langa and tells them about Chioni's ice skating - afterwards they decide to get her to learn roller blades and ask her to join S

Having her new regulatory outlet helps Chioni and she starts to go back to school and does skating with the rest of the sk8 main cast (Langa, Reki, Miya, Cherry, Joe, and Shadow) - Then the rest of the fanfiction can start

This might be a bit long and I didn't think I'd talk about it but I feel pretty crappy right now and kind of close to tears so I just wanted to vent or something I guess

This weekend I had my first experience with chasers; I made an account on an anonymous chatting website because I was curious and wanted to talk to people online to see if I could try and make some online friends or something, and I noticed that most of the users were creepy guys asking for nudes, and when I told them that I don't have typical female genitals they got grossed out and started being mean, so I added a trans flag to my name hoping it'd stop them from asking in the first place

It didn't really get them to stop but instead it attracted chasers, I knew that they were chasers, because they said all the typical things (I actually have a thing for trans girls, I actually like girl****, etc.) but sprinkled in, a lot of them were calling me cute and pretty and it just felt so nice to be called the things I've always wanted to be called

I knew that they were just saying those things to try and convince me to keep talking to them and to get me to send them inappropriate photos, but it still worked - No one I know has ever called me cute or pretty so it just felt so affirming, and I decided to look past all the weird comments and photo requests and keep talking to them

But now I guess the high has faded and I realise that they never meant that, they were just trying to get me to send them nudes and I can't help feeling gross, and sad, and kind of used. I just wish that I'd never started talking to them because it's made me feel even worse than before, I just got so carried away being affirmed but now I feel disappointed in myself, I knew they didn't actually think that, I knew that they were chasers but I still just couldn't help myself - I didn't realise how much I craved affirmation and compliments, I guess I just always thought that stuff like that didn't really apply to me and that I wouldn't fall into that validation seeking behavior; although I should've known, because I know I have those insecurities and I know that I have an insecure attachment style and there's million other things that prime me to seek affirmation and validation

Sorry if this is a bit rambly, I just don't really know what to say or even if I should say something, and I just feel bad, and it's also 3 in the morning and I'm about to cry - I guess I just needed to write how I'm feeling down so I can start to work through it