Do you consider yourself an addict to this "hobby/lifestyle"?
I believe I am borderline.. but wouldn't say I have ruined my life or even close to it. At least not yet. I try to stick to a budget and quite scared of ruining myself financially/healthwise.
I take as many precautions and try to keep things "safe" but I also don't think I'm "normal". I can abstain if far away from it. But if it's readily available then I indulge.
But I do struggle to control the behavior and have urges, etc. And mostly want to design my entire life around this "hobby/lifestyle".
And you?