I am a F(18) and I have been studying for a medical entrance exam. But I never wanted to study for the exam because I never thought of becoming a doctor and I was never interested as well. My dad (52) forced me to study for this exam and it has been a huge burden on me. I have told him multiple times that I genuinely cannot study something I am not interested and he gets surprised every time I tell him that and he even blackmails me by saying that it was me who told him I wanted to study for it .My dad is also a narcissist and is a control freak. This is also the reason why I have been academically weak for the past few years.he hits me senseless till I bleed and till I physically cannot move and he also verbally abuses me . He told me to kms on my 15th birthday when I asked him for a pair of jeans which was not expensive at all but he later bought a toy airplane which was 5-6 times more expensive than the jeans. He has caused me a lot of trauma and has ruined me. He still hits me a lot till this day and calls me dumb for not getting good grades on something I am not interested in studying at all and immediately compares me to every single person he knows . I cry almost every night cuz of his abuse .I have went to school with multiple bruises all over my body. I tried to make him promise me that he won’t hit me again but just laughed it off. He also once told me that being born a woman is pointless . I have been disrespected by my dad throught my life and I don’t know how to set boundaries with my dad. He genuinely thinks that he can control me and he also believes that things should only go his way. I am so mentally disturbed and overstimulated by my dad. I have attempted suicide multiple times but I was not fully brave. I genuinely think I am depressed and I think I also have other mental issues.How do I get away from his abuse?I feel hopeless
(Im sorry if my grammar is bad because English isn’t my native language 😭)