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what went so wrong? I know the answers so I guess

a better question is why couldn't I fix everything.

I wish I could process things better. I wish things werent burnt to a crisp but fact of the matter is thats how it is.

I cant change anything except my past habits and patterns. im trying. for me.

why do I have to live for anyone else- these changes are for me.

I still wish it didnt end this way. it all fucking hurts. I feel numb.

some days I think im happy and recovered then silence creeps in and all I can do is think. I wonder if being numb is better but I know getting over all of this is best.

one step at a time. ill be better.