u/Lazy_Maximum_1450

So this is actually my 2nd post on this reddit about this same guy. I just came home a few days ago from meeting him for the first time, and we officially started dating right after i left too. Well ever since i was there's he's been feeling ill, which isn't too abnormal considering he does have liver failure and is on a transplant list, but more sick than normal still. He kept pushing it off until today he finally decided to go to the ER. His gallbladder is infected and he's getting a tube to drain it for a couple weeks until he needs surgery. The surgery has a high chance of complications due to his liver.

I debated it hard but i decided to buy flight tickets back to see him again and be with him for a few days. I really don't wanna regret not going if something bad does happen and i know he doesn't really have anyone else to be there with him besides his roommate at this moment...

I don't really regret buying the tickets but some part of me is like is this too much for a guy I've only known since january and have only been officially dating for a couple days??? My friend thinks it's a bad idea, but my mom encourages it. i don't really know what i'm asking here i honestly think I just over think too much. I just know if I were him i'd want him to do the same for me and I dont want him to be lonely.

So I went and visited my long distance boyfriend for the first time. Mind you I was a virgin before this trip and had zero sexual experience. He knew this and was pretty clear that he was okay with us doing nothing btw... no pressure to do anything.

Anyways he offered to eat me out first and I was like go for it and holy shit i now know what i've been missing my whole life. For the next few days he would eat me out like twice a day and i'd cum every time, it was bliss. This man is obsessed with eating me out. The only thing is i feel very bad bc i tried giving him head 3 separate times and he was only able to cum once which ended up being by his own hand at the end anyway. I told him how bad i feel about it but he said it's fine and that he enjoyed his time anyway. I know it's definitely because of my inexperience.

But man once i even told him to continue to eat me out after i cum and start pulling away and that was the best orgasm i ever had, my whole body felt like static. Now that we're apart again all i want is to be back with him. My own hand is no longer enough.