u/LazyTurtle91

For context - in 2021 I was over 200lbs/91kg and in 2 years I lost 30kg. I then fell pregnant, went up to 72kg and from 2024 - early 2025 I lost 20kg and got to my lowest weight of 52kg. As a 34F and at 163cm, this was waaaay too hard to maintain and from Christmas - now I’ve gone up to 61kg.

I feel very fluffy and uncomfortable right now and want to lose about 5kg. However I can’t stop picking at sugary food. It’s out of control. I used to do well with my deficit and now my target is 1600 calories but I end up picking at junk food no matter if I hit my macros or not.

Every week I give myself the pep talk, I cry when I put my clothes on or when I see myself in the mirror, but it’s STILL not enough to stop me heading to the cupboard.

I am pretty active and lift weights 4-5 times a week, get 12k+ steps a day and try to run twice a week if I have time.

I don’t really know the point of this post but I’m just… tired. Tired of feeling crappy and tired of doing this same old cycle, but nothing seems to motivate me to actually stick to it for more than 2 weeks.