u/Lazy-Cranberry1553

So recently my husband of 10years has hinted divorce. He has said everything but the words “I want a divorce.” I am currently in hospice and dying a very slow and agonizing death. I thought with all the things our marriage has endured he would see me to my end. We’ve weathered many storms. Loss of jobs, loss of my father, loss of friendships, and loss of family (by choice no contact) He said some pretty hurtful things such as he feels dread seeing me and he feels dread coming into the house. I certainly don’t look the same from when we got married. I control what I eat because I don’t want him thinking I’m eating too much. I totally understand the stress he must endure with me being sick and him having a very demanding job. The whole conversation happened out of the blue. There was a lot of finger pointing but mostly from him. He asked for freedom. So he shut off his location. I have tried to do everything to respect his job. I’m bed bound and I try to keep to myself and not ask him for much I mentioned respite care and he jumped immediately to call the hospice. They said that there isn’t an inpatient facility it’s more like they put you in a nursing home. He even asked if he could date while still have me around to talk. A few months before we got married I did find out he was cheating on me.i forgave him and he has never given me a reason to not trust him since we’ve gotten married. I don’t know what I’ve done wrong. I’m willing to accept the blame for my cancers but it was out of my control. I feel lost. Just trying to seek some wisdom from others.