Can your thoughts start out normal and then turn to something bad without even trying. Like I go from something about happiness and then it goes to “especially the bad people deserve happiness” and I was like “wtf?” Wasn’t prompted or anything, just a sudden change, and that concerns me.
Recently I’ve been having thoughts and the longer it’s gone on, the more it’s felt like my heads gone and leaned toward the bar. I don’t want it, of course, but it feels like everytime I’ve explained why it’s bad, it’s felt like a dud. Even saying things like “so what if I want this?” Or “it should be legal to do these things.” And the more and more it’s gone on, it’s felt like it’s gotten more syntonic, so that’s worrying me. Not asking for reassurance, but I am asking if others have had this experience, or if it’s normal.
I have been mentally testing myself for the past 8 months now, and before I couldve differentiate between the two, but now? It feels like it’s on automatic, as well as I can’t tell the difference now. So I come here asking what effects are taken place if I kept mentally testing myself? Ik it’s shorter post than before, but I dunno what else to add.