i have slightly crooked teeth, i went to the dentist a few months & he said my teeth are healthy & “fine” but i can get braces for the aesthetic if i want, when i told my mum i want braces she called me shallow & said the dentist said i don’t need them & they’re only for aesthetics & she said “okay waste your money on them then, you don’t even need them.” and when i say i want my hair & brows done & lash lift & i want to work out she says i don’t have to & she complains. she says i don’t have to work out because i already have a good body, like so what? you can always be better. she even seems annoyed when i say i want to eat healthier & go outside/go for walks. it’s not that she hates fashion & dressing up, she doesn’t hate fashion, she actually likes it, but i love it, she always dressed me up as a kid & she likes when i dress up, it’s just the “add ons” she finds unnecessary, which makes me upset because i love fashion & beauty, i really want to do all of that, she’s holding me back & i feel guilty if i just do it. i told her girls on tiktok & other girls in general do all of that, & she said “nope they’re just lipsyncing, they’re not showing off their looks” are you joking? that’s literally the point of what they’re doing.. & then she said “you care so much about looks, you’re so shallow, no one else cares.” like YES they do? she’s just stuck in a bubble, that’s why people get plastic surgery, which i don’t want, i literally just want my brows done, a lash lift, some nice skincare/makeup, nice clothes (that aren’t just shein crap) & my hair done. & it’s not that she doesn’t want to pay, that’s not the problem, i literally have a job & get my own money. also she’s not even plain either, she fake tans, dyes her own hair & uses makeup, they’re all just drugstore things though, she buys nice clothes too (even if they’re just from shein, which i personally don’t want) so i don’t understand… also she’s usually very understanding about other things & we’re really close so if i do stuff she doesn’t want, i lose her i lose that bond we have. i just feel so stuck. she’s always called me pretty so it’s not about insecurity either.
i’m 17 btw, not a little kid or a young teen, it’s not because she’s strict either because she’s the complete opposite of strict! she’s always been so chill, she lets me wear short shorts & stuff.
i want to work in fashion or beauty when i’m older (mainly fashion) & when i talk to her about wanting my own fashion line, she doesn’t seem like she wants that, but she also hates jobs like doctors and lawyers and teachers & calls them boring so it’s not about that either!! she probably just wants me to work in food like her but i don’t want to, i feel like i can never do the things i want & i’m annoyed! how long is this going to go on?! i have no one else to turn to, i don’t speak to my dad anymore because my parents are divorced & i want nothing to do with him, i hardly have any friends either because i started homeschooling at 14 ughh.
i’ve been into this fashion & beauty stuff my whole life, im almost 18 & STILL being held back, all my teen years i could’ve done all of that, gone.