Does anyone else feel emotionally “out of place” with their friends?
I’ve had friends before, but I don’t think I’ve ever had the kind of friendships where I genuinely felt fully comfortable and connected without constantly feeling out of place or embarrassed. In school we all seem similar enough, but outside of school it feels completely different.
I recently went out with my school friends and the entire time I felt like the odd one out. I enjoy dressing nicely, being a little calmer in public, talking about deeper or more interesting things, and just having a certain vibe. My friends are very loud, childish, and attention-seeking in public, and instead of enjoying the hangout, I just felt drained and irritated.
I feel guilty saying this because I’m not trying to judge or think I’m “better” than anyone. I just crave friendships with people who naturally match my personality, interests, humor, and energy. People I can genuinely admire and feel understood by.
Why does it feel so hard to find friends you truly click with?