Hey, m28
Turns out my biggest fear is now to get sick and stay at home for the weekend. This is when I can't do anything - no sports. It's hard to work on a computer, watching TV is booooring as hell.
But what I realised it means that I am still trying to escape reality. Means that I am going out to work out just not to indulge in sexual behaviour.
I need to accept that not everything is about this grind/hustle culture and that running towards that business,money, status will only get me nowhere.
People do get sick, people rest, some people succeed, some don't.
My new success journey is not about money (which I do need because I got in huuge debt due my alcohol,drug and sex behaviour lol), not about creating business,
But something much bigger. Getting healthy and recover from my first and most hurtful addiction - Sex and Porn