I am just tired
I am 21 and I graduate college in 10 days. I had a girlfriend of 3 years until December when we broke up she was the first person I was intimate with and only person so far. She was the 1st person I truly and honestly felt a love and care for. She broke up with me and basically became everything I was afraid she would do. She has slept with multiple other men, became a heavy drinker and smoker, she has also completely tore down my name and said some very hurtful and damaging things post breakup. I see her everyday due to class schedules and It was genuinely one of the hardest things Ive had to do is to learn to forgive and not become bitter or attacking to her. I am proud of myself for so and I have completely gone upon the break up correct. I dont drink, smoke and I have remained single and really worked up building a connection with God.
I am tired just mentally and faced a lot of mental health battles since this. The pressure of graduating and the added political influence of the breakup which she created really was unhealthy for me. I am just lonely now. I really isolated myself and focus on myself which is positive but I am a very social person and it does sadden me. I would appreciate any kind words or any advice/ “hey man I been there”!