Is it bad that when I’m around straight cis dudes, I wanna be seen and treated with respect. Unfortunately, cis men respect other men better than they respect women. I just feel like whenever I’m in a situation where I’m around cis straight dudes, it just feels like I’m not masculine enough or in my head (I overthink a lot) they don’t take my masculinity serious because I’m a masc women. Sometimes I am perceived as a guy and I like that. I don’t correct people. I feel gender euphoria when that happens.
I experience a lot of gender dysphoria throughout the day and sometimes I just think to myself “if I was a guy, this person would be treating me different or if I was a guy I wouldn’t be worried about this” idk sometimes I say that if I go on HRT, at least I would be treated like the man (or masculine being) that I want to become and cis dudes would treat me with the respect that I deserve and they will take masculinity seriously. Also, I am looking into HRT cause I want some of the masculinization that I didnt get a chance to have cause o wasn’t born a guy. Deep voice, masculine physique, some facial hair and bottom growth. I know you don’t have to be trans to start HRT. For me, idc if I’m perceived as a girl or guy, as long as I am seen as masculine.
Anyone here noticed differences in how they were treated before and after transition? Like getting treated with more respect, people started taking you seriously, etc. Would like to hear your experiences.