I had someone for many months, I fell in love, He didn't, He said maybe one day he may fall in love with me, we were dating, and I was doing everything a boy can do in love.
But I was not getting love in return, I was being contacted by him when it was convenient for him, there was no consistency, all I was doing was waiting for his call or text like people do regularly when they are in love.
I was feeling anxious all the time, I was feeling lonely all the time, every time I got a notification on the phone and I thought it was him but he wasn't.
And it's not like he was not calling, he did but I wasn't priority, like if he is with his friends he gets disappear, and If I call, he would just cut the call, and I was wondering when did he call back and he would but only when he is completely free and has nothing better to do, Obviously he wasn't as invested as I was and he already told me many times that he likes me but doesn't love me. He is a good guy, He never lied to me, always honest.
Finally, after many years, I asked him what our future was and he said "I tried but I couldn't love you..and I would never love you and if you want we can limit our convo."
I suggested I can't limit bcz I love you and it won't help me if I talk less to you, so I suggested "End this" and he agreed, as if he was waiting for this, he didn't fight, he didn't ask me to stay, not a single word, not even tears, the guy who used to cry on small things didn't even had any tear but smile on his face.
And it ended right away.
He chose not to love me and trust me when I say this I am a good guy, Looks decent, honest, Loyal, very caring, intelligent, independent guy yet he chose to leave me.
Now I am feeling strange and very heavy, don't know what I should do, it's the third time when someone leaves me, every time they leave me.
Its hard to breathe and I have no one to share this and I really want to hug someone and cry a little.