So last year I unfortunately fell for this guy in my class. We graduated and it’s been like a year. Beginning of the semester there were many times where we were forced to interact and, I ignored him and was cold because I was trying to avoid guys after a creepy stalker situation a year back. He was very kind and friendly, and trying to strike up convo when ever the chance presented itself, but I could tell he was shy and more on the introvert/reserved side. After a few weeks I warmed up and then realized I liked him (which is why I was being cold at first, denial at its finest), he’s very attentive would remeber small things said, I resorted to being shy while he was actively trying to converse with me, pretty chatty when opened up and comfortable same goes for me. I com off as very intimidating and bold so brave of him ig?
So I thought this wasn’t possible, that he wouldn’t like me back until I started noticing the frantic stares from across the room in other classes and somehow always being around me, we’d be moving classrooms and somehow made it from the back of the room to the front walking behind me and my friends). Another example of that is when we were moved to the library for something and I chose a table in the back and he conveniently found a seat on the other side of the back and sat where he could perfectly see me, teacher requested everyone in the back to move up, we (friends and I) moved up he was right behind me. This happened a countless amount of times.
We were so awkward with eachother that our teacher noticed smth was up and would smile and watch us talking w eachother. There was a day where I gained the courage to look at our teacher when speaking to him and she was fully grinning and I got so shy and completely bombed the conversation and he 1000% noticed I wanted to die. There was a decent amount of playful banter/flirting, and he’d tell some random really personal facts/things, which was really interesting. We matched each others energy fs.
Another interaction we had was I came late to class because of a workshop I was hosting in the school that went overtime, class was somewhere else so I had to find a new seat. I didn’t talk to anyone in that class so I had to like within 10 seconds find a seat and I saw him sitting alone so I went there and just caught up on material and then we all worked on the assignment. After a bit he started looking up over and over again and I felt himself tare so like the fourth time he did it I looked and him and asked if everything was good and he’s was like yeah, there wasn’t anoyone behind me as I was facing a wall so I figured he was looking up at me. After I pointed that out he put his head down on the desk and like stayed there for like a minute so I was confused and then got back up back to normal and then once again back to the frantic 2-6 second stares over an over again, so I obviously played dumb and yeah he started blushing. So basically many countless moments of this, I’m realizing now I should’ve journaled the down because there were SO MANY.
There was this school trip we had as well where my friend saw him look at me and then look down smile while walking away so….
At an event I found out from someone that basically some I too was talking about it near him and basically was saying that he’s out my my league and that one of us should jsut say smth, smth along the lines of that. So I heard this and freaked out and an ex friend of mine advised me to jsut tell him there and then so he doesn’t hear it from others which is what I did and his reaction wasn’t a yes or a no which genuinely confused and pissed me off, was even more friendly and like showing interest in me but didn’t say anything so I was pissed and started to be a little more standoffish. There was like a sorta flirty convo during that time period too. And then graduation happened, he was staring the entire time, and then the event finished and I never heard from him again. We are still connected in socials and stuff but yeah that’s kind of it, basically I’m trying to understand if this was jsut me being delusional or like idk, I would benefit from some advice because I am loosing my mind.
I also saw someone that looked like his step brother (or whatever he is to him) and he like stared me down from his car last November and found that very interesting. And yeah, lmk if yall need more details