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My local fabric store doesn’t really have a big selection

Literally it isn’t one thing it’s a completely different thing and nothing is really working like I already feel like a failure and every single disappointment just kind of feels worse and I’m really trying it just feels impossible to keep up in my future is just bearing towards me like a freight train and I am not in the place that I want to be right now and I have to do something totally different while everybody else including my friends are going on to do other things anyway I’m still ashamed especially because I’ve always kind of been compared to my cousins and I’ve really just been trying to get used to the idea of my next steps. It’s just hard. My head and body literally hurts and it seems like every single time I calm down, but I’m not super stressed. It literally comes back. It feels like I’m just never able to stay happy or secure for longer than an hour. All my coping mechanisms normal strategy like thinking rationally about my situation and finding a solution or breathing exercises are actually helping anymore.And I keep obsessing over every single important social interaction that I have after it already happened. I know there’s nothing I can do about it, but I just feel like I fucked up some way. And I’m trying to shake this feeling of this failure that I have right now. And I keep thinking about my own dead also my future I just wish I didn’t feel like this anymore like I just feel like I cannot be happy a big part of me really misses being a child because for all the lack of agency and all the other stuff that comes of being a kid I at least did not feel like this

For example sighting other ethnic conflicts that maybe weren’t mentioned in the curriculum

Like the upholstery not the whole couch

So we’re cleaning and we’re taking apart the couch and we just found what we think are a lot of mice droppings and we’re pretty sure that they’re living in there which should we do?

Sorry for the stupid question but my mom just found a mouse in the house this morning and outside of cleaning this house topped to bottom. She also wants to get a cat but I’m not sure if that’s it’s necessarily an effective way to get rid of the problem outside of just setting traps and cutting off their access to food and shelter. But for the most all we really know is that there’s probably one or two and neither of us have found any droppings yet but I was hearing little scratches in the walls last week

Edit:We have been talking about getting a cat for a while but she really wants one now