I wish I was straight
I’m not homophobic and I don’t hate myself for being gay. I just don’t get along with women or least they don’t get along with me. Every women I’ve been interested in has led me on and secretly hated me for some reason same with friends. And it’s weird because I ask people if there’s anything wrong with me in social situations and they say nothings wrong. So I don’t get why everyone hates me, Everytime I turn around there’s a girl secretly talking shit about me. When all I do is stay to myself. The crazy part is I’ll leave these weird people alone and remove them from my life. But then they just talk about me more and make up rumors. They’ll even try to come back into my life without an apology. And when I don’t let them back in there obsessive reasons they become even more aggressive. I’ve had like 3 stalkers who are all women in such a small time frame in my life. And it’s only women I experience this with. Friends and romantic wise, I’m just looking for genuine connections. Don’t get me wrong the men aren’t the best group of people but I literally only get along with men. There’s no gossip or secret animosity, when I communicate my words are used against me. They’re open and honest, I love being a lesbian but I can’t help but think if I were born straight I’d be married to the love of my life already. And it’s eating me alive.