Hi everyone ❤️ it's one of my fewest post on reddit, please don't be harsh.
I used to have good looking face. I never looked like a model, but I used to get good comments, I had my bad days and good...
more than a decade ago... I started suffering from extreme pain mouth (we won't get into that, you can google Atypical odontalgia") , but more over, my face statred to change, really change.
I saw it, my family so it, I had a good friend who saw it. At the beginning doctors didn't "belive" me cause they saw my for the first time. So over the years I started taking pictures of my self....
and I get a "Wow" reaction sometimes from doctors. Or "Is that really you" ?
I'll tell you what happened . My lower third half of face has become smaller.
like the vertical height got shorter . I had so unique good looking proportions
You know, like the range between the tip of your chin.. .imagine it becomes smaller , and smaller. it looks.. .bad, unattractive. It's compliated cause because of my pain in the teeth area ,
I can't do much procedures. I don't want to look "beautiful", I just had very proportional face, which were like welcoming (forgive my english) like people saw kindness in my face and sat and talked with me.
Now , the problem , yes, I used to look and found BDD forums.. and yes , I've seen pictures of people thinking they are fat/ugly and they are not.
And so many times I hear the cliches "It's not real it's your mind playing tricks" . "You probobaly looks nicer than you describe. No. No . Sometimes we need to face the truth.
If a person doesn't have a hand , no one will come to him and say, well, you have a disorder which you "imagine" you have one hand.
It's not the case in my case. had I put here pictures (which I'm not gonna do, I don't have pictures on the net, can't bare the thougt). For more than 10 years.. to be honest.. .I lost spark for living (I'm not gonna hurt myself) but I can't I everyday , I can't bare it, it's not me in the picture. And my pain disorder, is taking me the option from doing any surgery, even though the only surgery might be jaw surgery, which is extreme to my case .
By the way I hope I would not sound incorrectly (again my english) I am part of the BDD disorder.
in the fact i let it make me lose my life, meaning not leaving house for years etc.
Just had to put my thoughts here maybe someone even have the same issue with face.. don't know. Don't know what to do .. can't make peace with it. Can't trying.. more than a decade.. .can't .