I am having a bad flare up with OCD and I was naive with my usage of Grok and ChatGPT. I used accounts not tied to me personally (though one of my email addresses has a fact closely tied to me). I used ChatGPT and Grok for an OCD loop and I asked it over 40 questions about one thing in one sitting. This is not the first time this has happened with an OCD theme, often I have asked it many things. However, I fear that if there's a massive data leak where everyone's chats get exposed and the chats get tied to specific users, my family and friends are gonna just be able to search up my IP address or something else about me and find all of my chats. I used to use ChatGPT more extensively last year and I'm scared they're gonna see me as this maniac who uses ChatGPT for everything, and it's gonna be enough to humiliate me in friends and relationships. That it's gonna prevent me from keeping a partner and friends.`I didn't have therapy readily accessible to me at the time, though, so I used it extensively. The problem this time with my newest OCD and anxiety loop is that the loop/questions involved me actively insulting a specific group of people, and while I don't feel as badly about those people than the chats make it look since I was having an OCD flare-up, people will think of me as an absolute crazy person or creep for asking it 40 questions about the same thing, which included me talking about a group of people and also insulting them. I believe people are capable of change and I don't want my worst moments or the lowest moments of my mental health out in public and for it to define me, especially as I change in the future and I know I'll get much better than this.
My fear is that there's gonna be a massive searchable database (as another Reddit user posted) where you can just type in someone's IP address or data and their chats will come up. Worse, if this happens in the future, that there's gonna be an AI tool to parse through and gather the identities out of millions/billions of chats/texts. And even if the database gets taken down, my chats are gonna be searchable on the Internet forever through other side websites. Then my friends and family will find me and they'll get very upset by what I did. I am terrified and I can't think of anything else. Please help.
For context, I'm a 19 year old female and what I asked ChatGPT obsessively about (my OCD loop) was how likely men were to bald early since I prefer men with hair and what hair treatments were gonna be like in 10 years because I was scared of 'my boyfriend balding'. Obviously this is incredibly immature and insulting to men but my OCD threw me in this loop and made me act out in a way that me without OCD wouldn't. This is dangerous because if my future boyfriend or potential partner sees my ChatGPT texts he will not want to be with me because of my obsessive quentions about male baldness