I need Advice
I'm not sure how to begin, but here I am. I need some genuine advice. So I have been in Multiple relationships before. And none of them worked out. A few days ago one of my "situationships" failed too. I feel like I did everything I could. I have taken care of them emotionally and been there for them supported their career and at times on my own mental experience. Idk what I'm doing wrong. It starts great but slowly it turns abusive after 3 months or so... I feel like I need to stop dating Caz I have honestly been a serial dater and needed external validation. I'm not saying asking for validation is bad. But asking and living and driving on external validation is bad; especially for the wrong reasons. I genuinely believe it is important that one must feel comfortable being disliked. And I am in most of my relationships. But it is a huge problem when it comes to my romantic relationships. It starts fine when I start dating them, but slowly when I am way more emotionally connected with them i feel like I don't even want to become more agreeable or something. I abandon myself in ways I previously believed I would never. And I need to fix that. I just don't know how. I feel like I don't even like myself...idk maybe. I have decided not to date in any way or form for a year now. And honestly, my life feels so empty and the loneliness hits hard after the end of my last situationship. I don't want to be back with him but I miss the rush and the familiarity of being in a romantic relationship. I am studying from home all day. I feel good when I work but it’s yk lonely at times. Does anyone have any idea or have you been in a similar situation, how do you fix it? Advice would be helpful. Thank You.