Is my boyfriend being suspicious
My (21) boyfriend (24) have been together for 3 years. We have been living together for 2 1/2 ish years. I did cheat on him once ( I kissed my ex ) and I felt horrible. He took me back a couple days later and I moved back in. Everything was good for a few months until he let me look at his phone when he was drunk. He has a private photo/ video app that had a passcode. It had videos of most if not all his exes (doing spicy things). I gave him the benefit of the doubt and didn’t bring it up until a few hours into our next day. He said “ I have no idea what you’re talking about “ I asked if I could look at his phone and he said no. I was annoyed and felt betrayed because he lied directly to my face. He then raced into the bathroom and turned on the sink (claiming he had to sh*t and didn’t want me to hear) and all of a sudden the entire app (categorized by name) was gone. I had no proof anymore. He lied and has never admitted it. Recently (2.25 ish years later) he is completely restrictive of his phone. Just to do little tasks like check an email or a notification I hear, he has to snatch it away from me. He said he just likes to have his phone because it’s his, but I feel super weird that he’s so private about it. He never pulls away his screen from me, but he only uses a few social media apps and I’m only suspicious about instagram, text deleted history & deleted photos.) I have to be nice/gentle since his father has recently passed away and I am about to leave (for 4 days) 2 hours away for an internship for the summer. I don’t know what to do please help.