u/LadyPlantom

قريت عنهم حاجات وحشة كتير جدا وعايزا اعرف لو حد راح هناك يفيدني. دلوقت انا عايزا اطلع فيزا عمل مش سياحة، معايا عرض عمل بس لسة العقد متبعتليش، مكتب فويا اللي في الدقي مكتوب عالويبسايت انهم بيحجزو التذاكر وبيعملو تأمين السفر بس مش كاتبين تكلفتو كام.

لازم الفلوس بالدولار ولا ممكن جنيه مصري؟ واجيب دولار منين والبلد مفيهاش؟

أنا عايزا احجز تذاكري بنفسي لازم احجز معاهم؟
و هي فيزا العمل هي هي فيزا الدخول المتعدد؟ وانا لو مش هرجع مصر تاني بس عايزا اسافر دولة تانية جنب تركيا لازم تكون الفيزا دخول متعدد ولا دي سبوبة عاملينها فمصر بس؟

ياريت لو حد اتعامل معاهم يحكي تجربتو عشان مش عايزا اروح ويرجعوني او بعد ما ادفع كل الفلوس دي اترفض.

مديري طلب مني reference number من السفارة جيت احجز معاد من السفارة ملقتش اوبشن اني احجز معاد اصلا فبعتلهم ايميل بعدين بعت لمكتب voya وبكلمهم خدمة العملا محدش بيرد.

هي السفارة التركية فمصر بتعمل ايه بالظبط؟ يعني كل الخدمات اتنقلت voya ؟

I’m literally scared right now because I moved out last year, but I had to move back to my abusive family’s house because of money problems.

I’m 27F, and I lived with muslim parents who took all of my freedom growing up and now my brothers are trying to control the hell out of my life. Since I came back, I’ve been less careful than before and I made some stupid mistakes that almost exposed my double life. Even though I’m an adult, no woman here is an adult even if she is in her 50s. The things I’m hiding aren’t even that big, but I could be in danger if they found out.

I don’t believe in their religion

I have a boyfriend who is not muslim

I’m not a virgin (as stupid as it sounds, but it has a great punishment in my community)

I don’t dress up “modestly” when I’m out of the village they live in.

A few days ago, they saw one of my piercings and it drove them crazy. Now I’m paranoid that this might cause them to suspect other things because my community thinks women with piercings are sluts. I’ve removed any trace of my social media, any photos, anything that could lead to my other identity because I post myself and my boyfriend with a limited group of people.

I’m planning to leave again in 3 months, but with the constant family surveillance, I can’t keep it together.

I’m planning to cut everyone off but it’s not easy. I know I sound paranoid but as a woman living in a very conservative and close-minded community, everyday I’m afraid of being found out.