u/KwonTae-Young

I know this is going to make me sound ridiculous, but I feel like I have no purpose anymore. I'm 30 with nothing to show for it. I got dealt a bad childhood, medical issues upon medical issues and abused at home, my own parents despise my existence (my mother has literally told me she wants me dead), everyone I've ever opened up to has shown me they'll put a knife in my back at whatever opportunity they can and I feel like my relationship with the only person I've ever really loved and who made me feel love for the first time in my life is failing.

I'm genuinely terrified at this point because my depression is causing me overall to plummet and I don't think I can keep going on much longer.