Her
You know what sucks, more than anything? When you love someone so much, and you know that they don't love you back, just as much. You're dating, and you constantly get hurt and yet, you can't seem to pull yourself away from them, no matter how much it hurts to still stay with them, because you don't want them gone. You want to marry this person, you want to have kids with them, you want to live with them, until the day you die, and yet, there's so many little things that hurt you, that they do, and it almost feels like they don't care.
That's where I am, right now. I love her, so much, yet she keeps hurting me in a bunch of random little ways. What makes it worse? It almost feels intentional sometimes. She pulls me in, reminds me of why I love her, and then she ever so slightly starts pushing away, to then immediately pull me back in again... She tells me she loves me, she shows me that she loves me, and yet, she also shows me, at times, that she actually doesn't care. Only cries when she's hurt, never feels bad when she intentionally does something, knowing it'll hurt me, no care when I cry to her, and she has absolutely nothing to say about it.
Why am I hard wired to her like this, why do I have to love her so much, why can I never seem to learn my lesson? Why do I always expect her to change the way she is? Especially when she shows me something different, and then goes back to the same pattern? Why am I, KNOWINGLY, breaking my heart over someone who seems to only want me, when she needs it, and doesn't care when I actually need her...