I lost the grip with my best friend from childhood. We know each other from primary school. On Sunday we had an argument. We said we need to chill out both of us. Today I was talking to her and her best friend and they had another argument with me. Her friend block me and she said only time will show that my childhood friend will forgive me. Now I checked dc, ig and Facebook that both of them... blocked me... I'm speechless right now, I'm panicking and I don't know what exacly happened few minutes ago. I think it's an end for me and them... and even if is type of experiment for temporally to break off contact with me it not funny at all.
EDIT 1:
Thanks for letting me know what should I write. It's not enough informations and I understand it. So let's start on
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Friend 1 - my childhood friend 18F
Friend 2 - friend of her 18F
Me and Friend 1 know each other from primary school. We were such a good friends through thick and thin. We still have the same topics for talking, we like the same things (games, animation movies, food, etc.) and also we talk about some contrversy topics (like kinks), when I went to high school our pays split away for more than 2-3 years. We still played roblox, minecraft and much more diffrent games. She also choose the same high school and we spent one year really close (she was in first grade and me in the last grade I had exams to wrote). And I started attending to university. Our path ones again split away but one year ago we ones again start meeting each other.
It was 1st March 2025, we went both on cinema on Se7en, film shocked both of us. We talked all the night in her house about it. And since than we talk everyday, we start cooking together, playing Team Fortress 2, watching movies together and she always told me that "You are the best person for meetings, talking and hugging". After a few meet ups she said he had bad friend in high school. He was such a scumbag for her. He always talked to her how love her so much, how bad he feel when she wasn't admiring him.
Finally she broke off contact with him and we was happy she made such brave decision. Time come past, in time I worked in McDonald's (my first job) and so on. Sempteber came, the month which the schools stars in my country and after few weeks after 1st September she... she... forgive him about it! I was deeply shocked, he was scared of him and now she forgive his stuff what he done for her... and that's the problem with our relationship comes.
I never accepted her decision, for me it was unlogic to keep contact with him once again. He wasn't at first angry of my opinion but I was always yapping about that for... even to this day...
Edit 2:
In meanwhile I met her best friend (Friend 2) we was a great pack of friend for more than half a year. Friend 2 also didn't like her colleague from class. Since yesterday. On Sunday I had an argument with Friend 1 and I told Friend 2 for advice, she adviced me to calm down and wait with this situation. I came to conclusion with Friend 1 to give her and me time, she have next week final exam in high school. And what is worse I didn't listen her request of 1 day off from both of us. I was panicking that she didn't like, she told me that is nothing to worry about. Unfortunately on the same day we have the argument (all of us) I left group chats and told them I need so time to calm down. They told me to also they need time and... they block me almost on everything. I didn't do the same for them (I only left group chats on instagram and messenger but I wouldn't block them!) and I don't know what to say more. Last think is Friend one blocked me on Messenger, Instagram and Discord (on dc she remove me for friends list), Friend 2 on instagram and messenger too. It's all my fault? I said them I want to change, I go even on therapy since January 2026 and they were proud of me for making this change in my life.
I don't know its temporally or permanently. I'm little bit angry that she listen Friend 2 and do the same thing. Both of them told me that it isn't for the whole life but some unspecified time... before blocking my accout to keep contact. Literally I woke up 3 hours ago and I saw that I don't have any of them in friends list, they don't pick up my calls too...
I'm feel bad and don't wanna go to school today (here it's 1 AM) and I'm still thinking about the whole situation and ask myself "what I did wrong why they betray me?"
I feel nothing right now...