How do I know if she’s ok with not doing the trip?
I make more money than her. I’ve always been able to cover majority of our trips. We take a lot of them. I know what she makes and she really does cover as much as she can.
This particular trip might be out of my price range but many moons ago we talked about it and in the moment I just old myself it should be doable and I’ll figure it out like I always do. I’m always good about acting as if my savings don’t exist and to just use what I have in my spending account.
I have a huge ego and a lot of pride, it’s making me very manic right now because through my insecurity of not being able come through on my promise to her I started a fight between us.
We’re just now winding down from the fight, and she continues to insist that it’s ok and we don’t have to go on the trip, we can go somewhere else. She just keeps insisting she keeps saying it’s ok. It’s derailing me, I feel awful, I have a pit in my stomach. I can’t stand the thought of telling her no to something like this, a birthday trip to somewhere she’s always wanted to go.
I can’t handle her saying it’s ok, I pushed her away to find someone else that can give her those trips anytime she’d like.