Struggling again
Struggling again, I went out wednesday to ease my anxiety and lonliness and knew it would only be short term fix and come back the next day. Stayed out all day and forgot some of the last few hours due to brown outs and the anxiety is raging like i have done somthing wrong, offended someone or some people. Its like because i can't remember my mind is making up things that i might or might not have done. I don't want to go out again but feel the urge to check. I feel awful.