u/KnowledgePatient253

But I miss you. I’m still unsure of what happened at the end and maybe that’s why I’m stuck in this spot. I only said that we should be friends for your sake, truly. I have so much in my life that shouldn’t be put on to you. Yes, I know you would be my outcasted grunge knight but you deserve so much more. I can’t be selfish like that. Maybe you’ve realized you deserve so much more than that finally. I hope, I do understand why you never wanted to be friends, I loved you equally the same. I really hope that you’ve found that much deserved happiness.

I miss you J. I know it’s selfish of me to ask this of you but all I want is your hugs. Maybe you need a hug, idk. But I so badly wish I could have that right now. I wish you understood what I was going through then, it was one hit after the other. It was so chaotic and I was so alone. All I wanted was you there. I guess I thought that you would be my protector for life. I wish we were sitting watching movies or playing our games together. Obviously I wish a lot of things. I miss you and love you. I hope you’re doing well, I hope your health is back to normal(body issues), I hope nothing new has come up, and I hope your mom, dad, and sister are doing well.

I still hurt by all of this, I cry on my way home from work a lot of days. I write to this void to respect your decision, whatever that decision was that didn’t involve me any more. Selfishly I wish you’d call me but I do truly wish you found happiness, even if it was without me. With whatever it may be. ❤️ I do wonder if you think of me… I doubt it. That’s okay. I do think of you daily. Some days I cry and some days it makes me hysterically laugh. Eh anyways, I’m starting to talk nonsense. Always. I miss you J. ❤️