u/Klutzy_Alps_626

Most shows nowadays are crammed into 8 episodes, with no chance to make it even to 12, meaning you have to shrink and rush the story in your head in order to fit all the episodes.

I'm having a story in my head that involves lots of worldbuilding and lots of characters that will have their own arcs, but how am I supposed to write it in only 8 episodes?

Should I write my show with the pacing I want first and then wait for it to be picked up by a studio and have to squeeze all of the story into only 8 episodes of 20 mins (like how it happened with Hazbin Hotel)? Or should I write the story with the 8 episodes in mind, and try to make everything in the story fit today's episodes formats?

It all started with a stupid image of a woman almost naked on youtube. It caught me off guard and I looked at the image for a while, then scrolled away.

Now since that day, my mind is trying to convince me I'm a lesbian/bi. It's getting worse and worse everyday. It's getting to the point I'm literally afraid of looking at any woman, my mind instantly begans to try to convince me to find them attractive, even making me have intrusive thoughts about sexualized woman. When I thought I was getting better a woman was shown on a TV and my mind got into a downward spiral again.

I've been straight my whole life and was happy with it. I have a boyfriend who I love very much. But my stupid fucking mind is trying to convince me that "one day I'll leave him to be with a woman".

Before anyone says to just "accept it" or "let it happen" I'll just say that I don't want this. Why? because it doesn't feel like myself. I don't want to be forced to be something my mind in forcing me to. I just want to things to go back how they were before this started.

I saw posts here about women leaving their boyfriends because they discovered they were gay, or were attracted to other women, or people that felt the same as me and then discovered they were gay later, and this made me even more scared, scared of one day this happening to me. I'm so scared, I've vented to so many people already and they all thought the same "they don't think this enough makes me a lesbian", and I agree, but it's so hard to convince my mind.

Now I'm even afraid of thinking about my bf, because my mind will try convince me that I don't like him, only women, women, women, women. I'm genuinely trying to distract myself, but every single thing that simply reminds me of the female gender will make me have panic attacks and extreme anxiety. Hell, even venting to my therapist makes me scared, of her saying to 'accept and be gay' or posting here, and you people commenting that 'it's okay for you to be lesbian, accept it'. But I don't want this, because it's not me.

Please, someone tell me what to do. Everyone is noticing that I'm visible distressed and anxious all the time. I can't leave my house, because I'm now afraid of seeing any woman. I'm afraid of everything that can be involved to woman. I'm so scared. I just want to see my boyfriend, but even that makes my mind think that I'm just in denial, denial, DENIAL.

I can't focus on anything, any hobbied I like my mind will somehow link it to me being attracted to women, I hate this so much. I can't to anything. I've been crying non stop everyday. I have so many proprothat I've never felt attracted to women, yet my mind still convinces me that it's denial, that I'm just denying because I'm actually gay or bi or idfk.

I just want this to stop. Please someone tell me how to make this stop, please. I know I'm not gay, I know it. But someone please tell me how to make my mind stop trying to gaslight me into these lies. Please, I'm begging you, because it feels that the only way to stop this is to swallow 100 anti anxiety pills.