I will live deliciously
I am tired of living in fear of what has happened as the generations before me continue to. I cannot change it nor control future outcomes. While I am just human with human anxieties, that is enough. I am confident in my ability to survive and follow through as I always have done up till now even despite the panicking. While I cannot change my neurological condition nor any faults that are due to it, I have worked hard to not let it harm others to the best of my ability, and that is enough. While work comes and goes, I know I have done my best while staying true to my values, and that is enough. I know what I know even when others tell me I cannot see the patterns of faults and greatnesses and all the in-betweens that souls cycle through. Even though past behavior is the best predictor of future behavior, it is not written in stone. I trust in my knowing and belief that people and the world can change, and that is enough. I also know this invitation isn’t new and so far has not been accepted, and that is enough because I believe in those I ask to come with me. These past few years have helped me learn who I am. While I will never fully know, what I have is enough as I also change and am not written in stone. I can choose to be whatever I want with whoever I want; I’m sure now. My choice is to leave the invite open to come with me my love. Whatever you finally choose is also enough because you have always been enough just as you are, just like me. So if you ever want to accept, you know where I’ll be….living deliciously in whatever is yet to come. See you there.
Always yours my love,
C