u/KirsOfKurves

I need advice

So for some context I 32f am 29w2d pregnant by my -idk what to call him anymore - 34m. We have been together for a little over a year. This pregnancy was an "oops" as my birth control failed as it was out of date- I had the Nexplanon implant in my arm. I had my first son in July of 2013 and moved to Tennessee from Maryland December of 2013 and have lived there since the beginning of this year when I moved back home to Maryland to live with my mom because of financial reasons. Me and the man I'm currently pregnant by have never lived together.

Now for my "issue"

I made the decision to move back home to Maryland mainly for financial reasons as my mom and stepdad said I could live with them rent free for a year to help get myself back on my feet and also I really just missed my mom. Shes my best friend and biggest supporter. I also have plans to go back to school after the baby is born (due in June school starts mid July) Anyways, after moving I noticed a shift in my partner. It went from constant calls and texts all day everyday to just a few texts a day and no phone calls. We both have it set to when either of us orders an Uber or lyft the other gets a text notification. Mainly for safety reasons as I would leave his house late at night and he wanted to be able to track the ride to make sure I made it home safely. He would typically text me when he was heading to work and coming home because more often than not he had a coworker giving him rides to and from, but then he started lying about what time he got home. I had confirmation texts from Uber that showed me his arrival and departure times, but he would tell me that he got home an hour or sometimes two hours later than what he really was. I know this is small and trivial, but he would also lie about where he was saying he was at a meeting but instead he was out somewhere else, not sure with who though, because we started sharing locations after I moved. Which I would very rarely check because I trusted him. Why would I constantly need to check to see if he was where he said he was? I had no reason to, but after him lying about what time he got home I started occasionally checking. After I caught him in his lies multiple times he stopped sharing his location.

Idk if it's the pregnancy hormones or what, but these little lies just keep building and building and it has really hurt me. Now it feels like the relationship is strained and I haven't really been replying to him as much because honestly I'm hurt. I've tried asking him who he was with and why he lied and his only explanation was he was being prideful and didn't want to tell me when he got sent home early from work. No explanation about lying about being at a meeting when he was somewhere else. So I ended up telling him that I needed space to think and to try to rebuild trust, but if I'm being honest it's not working. I'm at a complete loss as to what to do or tell him to do to try to rebuild and get back to where we were before all of this. But I genuinely don't know if I even want to anymore. It's not like I want this baby to grow up without a dad, I've seen what that has done to my first and I genuinely don't want that. It's just a constant battle in my head with what to do. Do I just let it go and suck it up or do I leave the relationship for good and just co-parent long distance. As of right now we still have the plan for him to move up here so he can be with me and the two boys, but I just genuinely don't know what to do. Help!

Sorry this was so long!

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u/KirsOfKurves — 9 hours ago