ENTJ - Lost my drive and can’t get it back.
I’ve always known exactly what I wanted. Left home at 16, put myself through college, opened my first business at 19. Few years later I launched an another company that did brilliantly, until Russia’s invasion of Ukraine forced me to relocate it to Western Europe in 2022.
The relocation was brutal. By summer 2024 I hit serious burnout, and six months later my partner and I sold the business. It was the right call, but something broke.
I’d already started a new business I always wanted to do, so I wasn’t at zero when we sold the company. But I still can’t function the way I used to, and it’s been nearly two years.
For context: F 32, I have C-PTSD from childhood and occasional depression, neither is new. I’ve tried EMDR, CBT, antidepressants, and I’m currently in traditional therapy. Results are minimal. I do yoga and mindfulness when I have the energy.
The only thing I can reliably do is react: show up when a client is waiting, move when someone needs me. Self-initiated action feels almost impossible.
I’m wondering if this is a purpose issue after losing the business. But honestly, I don’t know what it is.
Has anyone been here? How did you find your way out?