Stuck in a bad habits cycle
Hello r/MentalHealthSupport,
First of all, I would like to clarify that I'd like to remain anonymous, hence why I am using a burner account and email address. I am a 16 year old from Eastern Europe.
Since 1-2 years I've been stuck in a cycle, which goes as follows:
- I do one bad thing (let's say masturbation). Because I've done that my whole day is ruined so I decide to eat unhealthy amounts of chocolate and doom scroll (for example). After I'm done with that, I take a shower and suddenly get a rush of motivation: I clean up and I start living my life as I should.
- Live is good for some time (whether it's going to be a day, a week, two days)
- The cycle repeats.
For the past few days I have been able to mostly get rid of my phone addiction in the weirdest way possible (my motivation for not going on my phone is to get a better battery life, which I will not explain since we'd have to get into technical details), but weirdly enough it has worked for me.
My other current issue is since I am not using my phone, when I am home I use my laptop excessively (mostly Youtube watching and doing random things such as going in the middle of nowhere and looking at the StreetView lol). Besides extensions to limit screen time (which can easily be bypassed during my "bad" days anyways), what are some other methods to solve this issue.
I've also been dealing with a lot of stress related to school (which is a whole another topic), but also with the disappointment I have in my myself for all the broken promises over the last 1-2 years.
What do I do?