I have an appointment booked for next week to have an abortion as I found out I was pregnant this week. I’m trying not to process it too much as if I think about it too much, I’ll never forgive myself.
I told myself after my first one that if I ever got pregnant again I’d keep it. I guess when it actually happens though, things change and your decision can fluctuate. I can’t help but feel like my first 2 pregnancies have been robbed of me, I don’t have any children so it hurts more. I am just not in the position financially or mentally to raise a little one. I don’t want sympathy as I know both are my fault but it doesn’t make it easier. I had the pill last time and I ended up in hospital with severe pain, I’m scared I’m going to have the same experience as I was convinced I was going to die.
I guess I’m wondering if anyone on here has also had 2 abortions or maybe more? It’ll make it easier mentally for me as I now have to go a week until my appointment feeling guilty. My first one broke me so I don’t know how I’ll be after this one but any support will be appreciated ❤️