Sharing I guess
I am hopelessly addicted to ai porn. I have made deep fakes of virtually everyone woman I know. I have about 9 fake emails so I can keep getting daily tokens on different free sites. Every time one site goes down I search and search until I find another. I spend hours every day, usually while driving, trying to come up with new prompts that will make better results. I have several videos and photos, and if even one was found by someone I knew, I would be completely banished from anyone who knows me. I have images/vids of my friends’ wives, my family members, teachers, you name it. It’s even on my work phone. The crazy thing (well, another crazy thing) is that I am known as a fairly standup Christian guy in my community. At this point, getting caught and losing everything might be a relief. I have no help to offer, but I had to be honest because I’m sure there are others I’m similar boats. I not even 30, but I imagine I’ll be doing this the rest of my life. If I didn’t have a wife and two kids I’d probably be in a much worse place. Other people seem to have some key to dealing with life that I can’t seem to find. If everybody else likes who I am, but it requires me to have a secret life of making sexual videos of them in private, do I just keep going? I know eventually I may need more of a buzz, but it’s been more than a decade of addiction and I’ve never broken the physical barrier. Idk, just gonna keep going for now.