I feel like I'm dying over a guy I just met and IDK how to regulate rn
I had been doing so good I was actually starting to convince myself I was fine and didn't need a therapist or anything. And then I met a guy and we've been talking for like a week and I got way too attached way too quickly but he has an avoidant attachment style and told me he isn't looking for a relationship. But then he flirts with me and told me he's told me more about himself than he's told anyone in years and talks with me all day and night and we hooked up so it was going good but then yesterday he texted less so I did what I always do and I decided to test if he actually liked me. So I told him about another date I was going on and I didn't even really want to go but I wanted to see if he'd get jealous and he did but like really jealous and now its been 24 hours and he's just completely ignoring me now after being passive aggressive about the date and my chest hurts so bad I feel like I've been in fight or flight for hours now. I sent him multiple messages throughout the day and my last one essentially said this is my last try and after this i'll leave you alone. I want to text again, not texting again is killing me, but I know that people who are avoidant pull away the more you push. We were supposed to potentially hang out today too and he just didn't even take the time to say we weren't going to. Everytime I feel this unloved and alone and rejected I get the urge to text and meet up with random men to feel loved and validated, but I used to do that a lot and it always ended horribly and got me into dangerous situations so now I'm jsut freaking out and feel like I'm going to die and i'm not sure what to do.