Hi all, I am posting looking for any advice on how to push past the way that I am feeling right now. I have been in a bit of a depressive episode for the past few weeks and I think I need some light at the end of the tunnel.
I wouldn’t say that I have a bad life. In fact, it feels like I am very fortunate in so many ways. I have a supportive friend and family network. I have a job that (for the most part) feels pretty stable and supports my lifestyle. I have hobbies and I keep up with my social life. However, all of these things make my lack of feeling so much more difficult. I know that I am capable of happiness, and I was making a lot of progress towards it (eating whole foods, working out 3x a week, generally content with life). I felt so close to finally figuring out the secret sauce of life. But then suddenly I just couldn’t anymore. I just want to sleep, order out all the time, lay in bed and scroll endlessly. I am so scared of my life slipping away from me because I can feel myself being pulled into this deep numbness. I have struggled with depression for a lot of my life and I feel like I finally reached a point where I felt okay for the first time in a long time. For now, I can still keep up with normal life stuff like going to work and getting dressed most days, but I just feel myself slipping into my old habits (not cleaning my room, sleeping 10 hrs a day, not wanting to keep up with daily hygiene).
As much as I wish I could just be normal, I have come to the acceptance that this is a part of my life. It feels so hard to talk about with anyone, so I guess I am reaching out here to see if there is any advice for people who understand on how to push past these periods. How do I keep building myself up when it feels like everything is falling apart?