u/Key_Coat_3987

To be completely honest, I have never dated my entire life. I don't know if it's because I'm introverted or that I'm not physically appealing to most people, but I'm pretty sure it has to do with one of those or both.

To get to the point, I met a guy on the internet, we started off not in very good terms honestly, he called me names, which I didn't even know the meaning of but I got mad at, then we started talking, when we first met, we both talked about this particular game, he told me he hated it. Then, few days went by, we hit it off, he actually started playing it with me, he was horrible. We were at level 50, I had to constantly wait on him. Then, one time I was so busy that I only got to talk to him at around 4pm or later than that, he told me he was at level 200. I know this is a such a CHILDISH example but this was an effort in he's part right?

So, social media, tells me that I shall no praise men for these kind of efforts because they get to know that's the bare minimum, by that time, I was completely convinced. I'm not saying that he's efforts was extremely impressive or anything but it mattered. I hated that I didn't get to tell him how happy that got me. I told him my favourite book and he bought that and read it in 3 days, I didn't tell him to buy it, he did that out of interest and kept it a surprise until it delivered in he's home.He wrote love letters for me, I can't tell you everything that he did for me but for me, I tried to play off like this trying hard to get thing or like be the woman that these people on the internet tells me to be.

I sent shorts texts even when all I wanted to do was telling him about my day. I didn't wanna text first because that was the first rule about dating (from social media) when all I wanted was to just text him non stop cause he never made me feel like I was annoying him. He would text me as immediately as he woke up, Im 2 hours ahead of him by the way. I never trusted him I don't know why too.

Now I have no way of finding him, it's been a year. He deleted the main account I talk to him with. I don't know what I'm looking for here, an advice or closure, I have no idea. Even if I want to look for him, I don't know how.

To be completely honest, I have never dated my entire life. I don't know if it's because I'm introverted or that I'm not physically appealing to most people, but I'm pretty sure it has to do with one of those or both.

To get to the point, I met a guy on the internet, we started off not in very good terms honestly, he called me names, which I didn't even know the meaning of but I got mad at, then we started talking, when we first met, we both talked about this particular game, he told me he hated it. Then, few days went by, we hit it off, he actually started playing it with me, he was horrible. We were at level 50, I had to constantly wait on him. Then, one time I was so busy that I only got to talk to him at around 4pm or later than that, he told me he was at level 200. I know this is a such a CHILDISH example but this was an effort in he's part right?

So, social media, tells me that I shall no praise men for these kind of efforts because they get to know that's the bare minimum, by that time, I was completely convinced. I'm not saying that he's efforts was extremely impressive or anything but it mattered. I hated that I didn't get to tell him how happy that got me. I told him my favourite book and he bought that and read it in 3 days, I didn't tell him to buy it, he did that out of interest and kept it a surprise until it delivered in he's home.He wrote love letters for me, I can't tell you everything that he did for me but for me, I tried to play off like this trying hard to get thing or like be the woman that these people on the internet tells me to be.

I sent shorts texts even when all I wanted to do was telling him about my day. I didn't wanna text first because that was the first rule about dating (from social media) when all I wanted was to just text him non stop cause he never made me feel like I was annoying him. He would text me as immediately as he woke up, Im 2 hours ahead of him by the way. I never trusted him I don't know why.

Now I have no way of finding him, it's been a year. He deleted the main account I talk to him with. I don't know what I'm looking for here, an advice or closure, I have no idea.