I met my partner in 2013. We moved in together in 2019 and we both felt so grateful that we had found each other later in life.(I’ll be 69 on Tuesday.). On April 14, I came home from a chorus rehearsal and found that he had had a heart attack while I was gone. He was cold and I am alone and shattered.
The last 12 days of just been a blur of people reaching out. The family and friends have all left and yesterday was really the first day I had alone. Today I got thank you notes written and functioned pretty well until just right this second. I am scared. I am experiencing grief and sadness like I never knew was possible . The whole life I had envisioned together with him is now up and smoke. How do you get through it? I can live in this house which we shared. It says in the will I can stay as long as I want. But I don’t know what I want. They say not to make any big decisions for a year.
I’m just having a moment I guess. Any ways that you got through devastating grief would be much appreciated just about now. Thanks.